Staphylococcus Aureus EWWWW!!!!

Looks harmless enough doesn't it. Well I had a lovely chat with my Doctors office today in which they informed me that the reason I have been on 3 rounds of antibiotics and still have a sinus infection is cause its a staph infection and I need a whole new round of antibiotic that they "hope" will clear things up. What they are hoping is that it hasn't become drug resistant with the other 3 rounds of antibiotics and that I don't have to go through sinus surgery.

Woo Hoo can we say more fun than a bleeding ulcer?

Can I just tell you never to look up anything you have on the web!

This is what I found

"Staph infection can be simple and localized, such as with impetigo of the skin. It can, however, become widespread, by infecting the blood. It can thereby seed to various areas of the body, such as the bone, kidneys, or heart. If the infection goes so deep that it involves muscles or fibers that enclose muscles, it needs to be surgically cleaned. "

So yeah I am running around with a bottle of hand sanitizer and Corox wipes around the house to say the least. I am wondering if it would be good to put bleach in my dishwasher and I plan to throw away all the garbage cans I have thrown used tissue in.

I know I am totally paranoid but the last thing I want is my sweet babies getting some flesh eating infection.

So I start my round new round of antibiotics today and then I need to go back for another sinus culture (oh yeah big long q-tip up the nose is always a fun thing to look forward to) in 10 days, Wish me luck.

My baby will be 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can hardly believe that 3 years ago today I was laying in the maternity ward at the hospital wondering how long I was going to be stuck flat on my back with an IV. I was so afraid for Wade to be so early I had pictures of ventilators and a million IV's and a baby the size of your hand.

We where so blessed he waited the week between Christmas and New Years for the shots to help develop his lungs. So no ventilators and a he was a healthy 4lbs 11 oz we still had a bunch of IV's and more monitors than I care to remember, and after his NEC scare we had the opportunity to know exactly how a milk cow feels 3 to 4 times a day.

Wade is such blessing to us and our family, he is smart and adorable and has been totally two for the last year. Lets hope that 3 will involve less prying open of pill bottles, fewer asthma attacks now that the dog lives elsewhere, not as many marker from head to toe moments and totally zero throwing our selves on the floor having a temper tantrum days.

Happy Birthday on Sunday Wade!

It has been way to long...

It has been WAY to long since I blog'd!
What can I say it is Christmas time, heck it is almost Christmas ( EEEK I still need a couple stocking stuffers).

I have been a very busy girl ( that's my excuse and I am sticking to it ;0) )

I finished the quilts for the inlaws and got them mail (in time for Christmas I might add) If you haven't opened the box yet Chuck and Pat SUPRISE you got quilts!! They where the first quilt project I made in full size.
I got brave after I started these quilts and made one for each of the kids Austin is getting Batman ( got them all matching jammies to give on Christmas Eve) Wade got Spiderman and Miranda's is black and white.

I crocheted for my mother in law ( I know Janet doesn't read this so I am safe telling you)

I made cupcake snowmen for the neighbors and the plan is to make some caramel corn and fudge for the kids today.

We have had and then melted about 4 inches of snow and now have about 1/2 an inch is all of new stuff so that's why the snow men cause we wont be having any here today at least.

I hope everyone is ready for Christmas if not what are you doing reading this get to the mall quick :o)!

Its no wonder my nose is stuffy

I have been helping clean out the attic and the basement at my grandma's house she has moved into a condo from the house she lived in for 60 years and we have 60 years of dust, pollen and who know what else I wouldn't be surprised if I ended up with that fun disease you get from dry rodent droppings by the end of all this.
We have been working like crazy to get the main floor empty and a path through the basement so it could be shown. Well the first people who saw it offered full price so now we have 3 weeks to get the rest out. A lot of it could go to the trash but she won't let you throw anything and I mean anything away unless she touches it tells you the story about it and then deliberates for 15 minutes.
Yes it is a long and laborious process and it will only be worse until we get her out.
I love my grandma!
The one thing this has taught me is I need to go throw some stuff away!

trains 2

Wade loved the trains he had a wonderful time!
I love this grin it just kills me.
Got some cool artsy-fartsy ones too.

Trains mommy trains

Wade loves trains! Every time we drive down Wall Ave. Here in town we pass Union Station and it's train museum. So today I am going to take train boy to see the trains up close, I do have an ulterior motive I want to get some cool close ups of the trains for his room. (we are switching from baby room to big boy room so that means no more Suzy Zoo and more trains!)
Wish me luck not only with getting some cool shots but with keeping track of wild boy in one of the "nicer" parts of town ;0)

Minivans SUCK!

We have a minivan and it sucks!

This could be the end of my post but I feel the need to justify my statement. We bought said minivan when we had a 3rd child and couldn't fit 2 carseats and another child in the backseat of anything else. Yes I know what you are thinking but I would rather slit my own wrists than drive a station wagon and lets tell the truth here a "sport utility wagon" IE the Subaru Outback is a station wagon just with 4 wheel drive!

I hate driving a minivan for one thing it makes me feel old. You know that no one who is young and fabulous drives a minivan.

Two this minivan while it is nice with the leather seats and the two tone paint it has had more problems with it than I can even re-count to you. As we speak(well okay as I type) the dang thing is back at the dealer to have the lock on the sliding door fixed yet again (I believe this is the 3rd time grumble grumble)

Three when you drive it everyone assumes you fit a mold: Soccer mom, 3 or more kids (but less than 5 cause then you have to have something bigger), in your late 30's or 40's, live in the suburbs and own a dog. While some if not all of this is true I don't like to fit a mold, I never have. Why else would someone dye there hair purple and wear black from head to toe in the August heat in Utah?

What I want what I really really want is a custom painted(maybe white and black or purple and black or even pink), convertible VW bug. A new one so I don't have to carry shoe lace and chewing gum wrappers to fix it (long story for another day). Maybe I am old and going through a mid life crisis (I am not that old I am no where midlife maybe its a one third of my life crisis) but I just am not ready for the baggers at the grocery store to start calling me mam, for the people at Hot Topic to know I am shopping for my daughter and not for me, I don't want the 20 something at the store to check out my daughter and not me. I am going into this old thing kicking and screaming!

That being said even if we sell our stupid minivan that has issues I probably will end up with another mom car cause after all I am a mom.

I still plan on wearing the happy bunny t-shirt!

To much awareness !?!

October is breast cancer awareness month, I think that's a good cause we need to be aware of.
It's also domestic violence awareness month, also something to think about,

In addition October is:
Lupus awareness month
Multiple Sclerosis education and awareness month
Workplace politics awareness month (I am totally not kidding)
Rett Syndrome awareness month ( they need to do a better job on this one I have never heard or it)
Nieman-Pick Disease awareness month (ditto on this disease)
National Cyber Security awareness month
Vegetarian awareness month ( I didn't realize people weren't aware of vegetarians)
Federal Energy Management awareness month
Learning Disablities awareness month (so if you have a learning disability do you even know you have an awareness month?)
CSA Celiac Desease awareness month
National Disability Employment awareness month ( this sounds like you should be aware that disableled people can be hired but doesn't do much as far as helping them get hired)
SIDS awareness month
Child abuse awareness month
Down Syndrome awareness month
Dyslexia awareness month
Hunger awareness month
Spina Bifida awareness month
Arts awareness month
AIDS awareness month
Diversity awareness month
Polish American heritage month
National Physical Therapy month
Deaf and Disability month (because being deaf isn't a form of disability?)
Pulmonary Hypertension awareness month ( I would hope if you have this you're aware of it!)
Mental Health awareness month
and my favorite Brain Tumor awareness month

HELLO!!!!! Is this completely out of control? In our need/desire to be politically correct we have to make sure we give every possible illness, lifestyle or thing an awareness month. How completely ridiculous is this? Don't you think that people aren't aware of art? Or brain tumors for heavens sake.

People lets get real here yes we have disease, yes we have disabilities yes we even have art but do we need to have an awareness month for everything?
What it comes down to is money (doesn't it always) If I have National Physical Therapy month I can run ads, send people out to collect for research and the like.

Why don't we try to be more Christ like (oh know its the religious right trying to shove Christian values down our throats again) more Budda like, more Mohammad like if you like,
but lets try to show love to every one and everything lets be aware of the people around us and take care of our friends and neighbors and then we have no need for Mental Health awareness month, or Sad and Lonely awareness month or any of that crap. If we all love one another, take care of one another and lookout for one another we are already "aware" of what people need and its already been taken care of.

You can never be to rich, to thin or have enough fabric!

Seeing as how I will never have to find out if that is the case with the first two I thought it best to work on the third ;)

I love making quilt tops I love finding patterns and then picking out just the right fabric to make it look just right, I love to sit at my sewing machine and watch the blocks come to life. Sometimes they come out exactly like they looked in my head when I started and other times they look totally different, but that isn't necessarily bad.

I love when they are all finished and I can look at the quilt and say I"I did that" I made something beautiful, useful and something that ties me to my ancestors, my mother never quilted and her mother never quilted, my grandmother on my dad's side was an advid quilter unfortunately she was a bit odd and I was a young when she died so I never had the chance to get past the idea that she was strange and learn anything from her. I can only guess that somehow that love of fabric and creating came from her some how.

I think it might also have to do with my love of history and wanting to feel close to the women of my family that walked across the plains of this county with only the things that would fit in a handcart. I know that they made quilts for practical reasons but I think they also must have had a creative side too. They they enjoyed watching a quilt come together and know that something they created would be used to help keep their children warm.

Chips sooth the savage beast...

I am not 100% sure why potato chips are the think I have to have when I am stressed or upset I think it has something to do with they are my mother and my grandmothers "stress food" too.

Can potato chips be genetic? Or is it nurture not nature that drive me to eat half a bag of the damn things when I get upset?

All I know is that this has been a potato chip week and I will be glad when it is over tomorrow.

I love Happy Bunny!

because he always says what you really want to say but don't. Okay I usually say what I want to say anyway ;0)

Lets face it we as a country very rarely say what's really on our mind. How do you explain that to a child? "You should be an honest person" then they see you telling great aunt Bertha that she looks fabulous in her lime green polyester jump suit. They know you are lying. So how do you explain that sometimes you lie to not hurt peoples feelings and that's okay? Is it okay? Should we subject the rest of society to Great Aunt Bertha in her lime green jumpsuit? Maybe what we need to do as a people is stop having our feeling hurt when people tell us the truth instead of what we what to hear and be more honest with each other.

It seems to me that if we could start with being honest a lot of other problems would go away. If you are being honest then we would have a reduction in theft (it isn't honest to steal), we would have truth and honor among our legislator's (maybe we could start to trust them again), we would never buy that hideous shade of lipstick(cause your friends would say "sweetie bad color on you."), we would never have to sit through another Al Gore docudrama about global warming (because he can't honestly say that he can prove anything is warming let alone the BS he has in his speeches and his movie)

Lets all start with honesty, we would have more integrity, we would have a better society in which to live, we would never again be victims of the great fashion conspiracy that gave us leg warmers!

Rain Rain go away...

Rain is not my favorite thing!
I don't mind the snow (until I have to drive someplace!) but I really don't like rain. It makes it dark and depressing and yucky!
Maybe its just my dark, depressing and yucky mood that is doing it. I have had bronchitis for the last 3 weeks and I am totally ready for it to go away too.
Wow what a pathetic post!
I am going to try to improve my mood by playing with my sweet baby boy.

George Carlin and Alec Baldwin oh my...

Thomas is a new fixture on our TV. Wade has discovered a love for trains.
(I think its in the blood, my great uncle was an engineer, my grandfather owned a freight dock about half the older generation of my family worked for the rail roads.)
Thomas is cute but I don't get the "message" its trying to give the kids , they always have some message but its never spelled out at the end just sorta left hanging for the 3 year olds to figure out. What's up with that?

I also have to wonder what two of the biggest tree hugging, Bush hating, baby killing liberals on the planet are teaching my son as they narrate the show. I have watched it with him and the ones I have seen so far are "safe" from the liberal mind control but we will have to see.

For now we watch Thomas almost as much as Einsteins I am sure next week or maybe the week after it will be Bob the builder (Heaven help me!)

Why is it...

Why is it that men feel the need for a hair cut every 3 to 4 weeks?
Mike " It's touching my ears!" Carin "and" Mike "I NEED it cut" Carin " whatever!"

Why is it that a child that wants to play the Playstation can finish his homework and eat his dinner in 15 minutes but if he "isn't in the mood" to get it done or eat it can take 7 hours?

Why is it that the only time I want a Coke slurpee all they have at the 7-11 is Pepsi slurpee's?

Why is it that even when change is good it's never easy?

Why is it that my 11 year old thinks she is 23?

Why is it that when I am bummed I crave something to eat but I don't know what and nothing I eat fixes it?

Why is it that when I leave a surprise for Mike in his car or mail him a romantic card or anything like that I have to ask him if he got it?

Why is it that my cat thinks she is a ninja and hides and attacks my ankles when ever I go down the stairs?

Why is it that even when I have people to talk to and things to do I can still be lonely?

Why is it that I am supposed to live here in this place? I seem destined to stay here and I am not sure why.

Why is it I think moving far away would make me feel any better?

why am I babbling on like this when I should really be doing my laundry?

Fall leaves

I shot some really cool pictures of fall leaves this last weekend on a drive up to Snow Basin.
No really I did I just can't post them right now cause I can't find what the 2 year old did with the card reader. If I could show them to you I would show you my favorite one of a red leaf on the ground. I shot some vistas of the leaves and pine view down the mountain and those are nice but my favorite one I got laying on the ground
( well more squatting then leaning over really, there is no need to get dirty to do this is there?) it is this brilliant red leaf, you can see brown dead leaves around it and even a little gravel. Anyway when I find the card reader I will show it to you, promise!

It's still so overwhelming

Five years ago today.
That seems like it should be a long time its long enough for a child to be born and go to school, its long enough to pay off a car you have bought, its long enough to have changed jobs at least once, But somehow this still feels like it happened yesterday, it still tears out my heart. When I see the images of that day I still have tears rolling down my face and I still get very angry.

We should still be angry, we should still be mad enough to so what is necessary to stop terrorist from ever doing this to us again. I take courage in the fact that we have an amazing military with men and women who are willing to put themselves in harms way to stop the terrorist on the other side of the world and not in my backyard.

Thank you all Army, Navy , Air Force, Marines thank you to all the reservist that have walked away from there normal jobs, homes and family's to help make America a safer place for me and my family. I know that nothing I can say will be enough to thank you fully. Please know that I do thank you from the bottom of my heart. I pray for you and your family's every day. I want you to know that we support you and your mission and that we know we are safer because of you.
I hope that this day will always make me cry that I will never get to the point that I am over the hurt, the loss and the anger this day means to me.

God bless our troops, God bless America, let us never forget this day.

My life is blah...

My life is blah that is why I go weeks or even months between blogging. I have nothing interesting to write about, I should I have an opinion about everything and I am never wrong just ask me ;O).
Lately my day has been get up make the bed, get kids and Mike off to school and work, clean the house, dork around online, wonder what I am going to fix for dinner and that's about it.

I told you my life was blah!

On the other hand I get wonderful hugs from Wade with a pat on the back, Miranda when she isn't being "Miss Attitude Problem USA" will still put her arm around me and tell me she loves me, Austin will still blow me kisses as he gets out of the van to go to school and he always gives me a hug when I need it most. My sweet Mike is supportive, caring and one of the best tennis players on the planet ;o) So I guess my life may be boring but I am very very blessed by the people that are in it.

Its soccer time again!

Yippy! NOT!
I am the self admitted worlds worst soccer mom!
I hate getting up on a Saturday at 8 am to sit in th cold (or be there at noon in 95 degree heat) , I hate that they change the rules every time he gets a year older (I as just starting to get the rules from last year :o( ), I hate worrying he will have an asthma attack, I hate that its supposed to be "non competitive" they aren't even supposed to keep score but some of the coaches, dads and especially moms are out yelling at their kid or the 12 year old that is the referee, I hate bugs and dirt and grass and being outside in general!

What I do love is my son and he loves to play soccer! So I will be out sitting on the sidelines trying to be supportive, trying not to be the mom yelling at the kids from the other team cause they touched my son. I will get up on Saturdays at the unholy hour of 7:30 so I can drag a lawn chair up the hill to the soccer field and listen to my 11 year old daughter complain and say all the stuff I can't cause I'm the mom and I have to be supportive ;O) !

We will miss you Steve...

Steve Irwin of "The crocodile Hunter" fame was killed earlier today in a freak sting ray accident while filming for a show to be hosted by his 8 year old daughter Bindi. Steve was as outlandish as they come and one of the most entertaining people on television. His loss will be felt all over the world as he had fans everywhere.
My thoughts and prayers are with Terri Irwin his wife and Bindi and Bob his children at this most difficult time. It is hard enough to lose a loved one but to have to deal with it in the glare of the media spot light but be almost unbearable.
We will miss you Steve. I am sure heaven will never be the same ;O)

Its over 100 again today...

The kids are having a blast cooling down in the yard. Wade who was never very fond of water has embraced the whole idea and is having a blast.

Both Mike and I spent half the time the pool was filling downstairs checking for leaks after last summers adventures with the burst pipe. So far so good :o)